Can I see your Vision Board?
Or just like me, you're scrolling through TikTok and trying hard to fathom the reason behind everyone's vision board?
Happy New Year Budaflies!!!
It might be a long read, but I hope you enjoy every bit of it.
I’m sure you’re surprised my salutation starts the letter today. Well, I have little to no explanation for why I’m doing that but I know I’ll end the letter with another salutation.
I know I have been gone for a while, yeah. I hope you understand what it means when someone doesn’t decide to take a break from doing their favourite thing but the ‘break‘ meets them along the way. (Did I succeed at confusing you??!)
In the wake of feeling guilty for not writing, living my life away from my everyday stress and what seemed to me as my way of having fun met me along the way. I decided to take this opportunity life presented to me. Trust me, it was worth taking.
Had it not been for my time away and realising how much of an impact writing has brought upon me, I doubt I’d be seated on a blanket with no backrest or neck support, writing this letter to you, my dear butterflies.
I don’t think I want to start by saying; “To the new year ahead“ because it clearly isn’t my thing and as I type right now, I do not even have my goals set for the week ahead, neither do I have a vision board for the new year we’re setting into.
I cancelled for myself some years ago all the fuss around ‘New year, New me and even New Year Resolutions,’ how much more would I quickly rush to Canva to prepare a Vision Board because everyone is trying to show off theirs on Tiktok (Not to say I hate it, I admire what y’all involved in. It’s just not my thing. I might come to accept and act upon creating a vision board too but not this time I guess.)
I’m willing to set goals. I mean I look forward to strategizing my life to fit what I’d need it to be (Just as the Saviour wants it too). I look forward to accomplishing certain goals, failing at some and even never getting to begin or end some of these goals. I’m just not willing to call it a ‘New Year's thing’. It’s only but a change of Date we’re about experiencing generally.
Whatever happens to ourselves during the coming days with the new year dates and seasons would be because we intentionally decided to make it so. We made determined decisions and our needed commitment saw us through them.
In as much as others love the idea of listing for themselves what’d they’d term a list of New Year Resolutions, I’ll just go ahead and tread steadily with the weeks ahead as they gradually develop to months.
But there is a list of goals I’d love to be more intentional about for myself in the weeks and months ahead. If there’s anything I’d very much like to be more intentional about, it’d be ‘taking things one at a time‘(slow but sure movements), even though they say ‘Time and Tide wait for no man'.’
So here I go with some of what I can remember and can share; Kind courtesy Huawa’s 31/12/2022 issue.
Mental Health🤯
Since Therapy is extraordinarily expensive and something I cannot afford currently, I’ll resort to my regular self-help podcasts. In the past few weeks, they have brought me to an actual realisation of myself. I have been able to replace fighting sleep and running around with flimsy excuses for a doctor to sign a pain med prescription on my behalf with listening to calming sounds, voices and interesting and somewhat boring sleep stories that help better than the meds. 😴
Also, I’ll try my best to visit the gym🤒 as often as possible.😅 The people there are fun most often, and the fee is very affordable as compared to saving towards meeting a professional therapist. At least there, I get to add on a little butt weight just to flex on my big sister that, I don’t only have bones holding my back and feet together. There’s a protruding ounce of flesh, curved beautifully and round there too. 🤫😅
Love 🖤
Yes, that was me some months ago. I mean by now you should know that I’m a sucker for love, lol. I love love walayi. 🙈🖤
Well in the coming weeks, I’m not trying to find romance on these streets. Not to say my eyes have seen shege, not at all. Perhaps I might have served the shege(I understand sometimes I can be too wicked and selfish).
I just want to feel love in other aspects as well.
I want to intentionally dedicate much love genuinely to family, and friends and also to finding and meeting new people. 💝💋
Pain😭
Accepting pain in the past few weeks seemed like I burden to me, I’d find myself trying hard not to question the Almighty why I had to feel what I felt at these points in my life. It hasn’t been all rosy.
In the coming days, weeks and months, I want to perceive pain with the mindset that; “Only when I have experienced pain, would I be able to feel joy when it comes.” 😶🌫️
Writing📖🖊
I’m looking forward to doing better with my writing. I’d love to document more because if there’s anything writing has taught me, it’d be ‘finding myself.’😍
I’d want to be committed to sharing my journey with the mass that seem interested and those who’d either resonate with it or love to share a few pieces of advice on how I’d best improve where I fall short. Not only does this help me, but it also helps the community here as well.
Joy😄
I’d love to also take more pictures and videos of myself. I have realised that seeing smiling JPEGS of myself, and videos of me bring me so much joy.
I’d love to travel, so invite me even if it’s to help take good pictures of you on your honeymoon, I honestly don’t mind and please I’m no professional photographer.
I’d love to make more money so send more writing gigs my way if you need my services. I’d smile and laugh more than I did the past months so prepare to be sick of my annoying laughter. 🤣
Invite me out on more friendship dates and hangouts, I’d be doing the same. (I have already asked my mum for permission to go outside so do so quickly before my permit expires). And it doesn’t always necessarily have to involve eating out. I love playing games, both indoors and outdoors. 😝
Please do away with any negative energy around my side. As much as you might appreciate and accept TOXICITY🤥, I love my peace and calm. I won’t hesitate to do away with bad vibes so learn from me. Okayyy?!🥰 It brings joy. 🤗
Education🎓
Though I never got the chance to flaunt my graduation robe and sash here, I’m glad the school decided to go virtual with our graduation ceremony. Else you wouldn’t have heard the end of it. Lol.
Well, taking up a great responsibility to increase and strengthen my spirituality by serving a full-time mission has me putting a pause on anything academic. I look forward to resuming in due time. I am as well making advances towards my resumption.
But for now, much of my focus would be centred on gaining more gospel-centred education. ✨️😇
The list goes on and on. But I need sleep and so do you.
What are you looking forward to being more intentional about in the coming days, weeks and months, or safe to say, THIS NEW YEAR? 🤭
As always,
Na-Bi🦋🖤
Stay safe and healthy. Grow and Glow in this new season. 💕🥳🙏🏾
The part about the "new year, new me" reminded me of something I started writing a little over two years ago. I also felt it was quite irrelevant, but as I was writing I got stuck and I haven't been able to fully arrange that piece to make enough sense to me and then to anyone else, so it's still under construction😅. But as I pondered on what you posted I gained some new insights. Maybe I'd share that with you later.
But setting goals for the week and not for year is somehow to me😅
Glad I’m not the only one who
thinks entering into a new calendar year doesn’t require that we all set new goals or resolutions for the upcoming year. I think starting with smaller goals like weekly and daily targets are best. I think at the end of the year, if you compile your little successes every week and every month you’d be so proud of what you’ve been able to achieve. It was a great read. Inspired.
Happy New year Nana Yaa!